The Heart of a Missionary-


I live for days like Today.

Posted in Randomness,Uncategorized by misspicture on April 28, 2010
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I know i havent been blogging lately. I feel like i do have a lot to say but somehow find it hard to put it all into words.

I dont know.

Im glad keeping a blog is not my job.

I would love to blog for a living though…

and i just contradicted myself.

blah

Wanna know what i learned today after hanging out with a grownup woman ?

God allowed some awful episodes in my life. Just for tonight. Just so i could have something to tell her tonight. I cried, yes. It hurt, yes. But God transformed my tears into wisdom.

and for that… I am thankful

I was, also, able to answer one question that had been dancing around my little head…

….. Is that God’s best for your life?

Yes, sir. It is.

Because He spoke
Because there is peace in my heart
Because it does not hurt. It does NOT hurt.

I live for days like today.
I live for deep conversations where the Holy Spirit is just there
I live for days like today.

: )



Lemon Pies and cheesecakes….

Posted in Randomness,Support Raising by misspicture on April 23, 2010
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They are part of my vocabulary now.

I bake these and save the profit to go to Africa in sept.

This isnt a burden…. (yet)

I love baking. I am enjoying this.

: )

But after a long day of baking and walking to our CRU meeting -where i sell my goodies every week-……

This is how my beautiful feet look like

swollen

I am beyond tired right now.

‘night-

He is my portion!

Posted in Insights by misspicture on April 19, 2010
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Im was reading Numbers 18 today

The LORD said to Aaron, “You will have no inheritance in their land, nor will you have any share among them; I am your share and your inheritance among the Israelites. Numbers 18: 20

As a missionary i often wonder about my future. Will i ever get married? will i ever own a house? will i ever own a car? will i ever have children? will i ever…..?

And i had always answered some of those questions with a big fat NO

Missionaries are poor

And sometimes, deep inside, i wish i wasn’t called to leave all the comforts of home to love people i dont even know.

Sometimes, if not most of the times, I am selfish.

This morning God introduced me to a truth i wasnt aware of.

He is my share.

Aaron and his sons were the high priests. They were in the “ministry” and God told him that they will have no inheritance in the Land of Canaan (The promised Land). For me, this means, no house, no car, no land to cultivate, nothing… But im no bible scholar. This might mean something else but just stay with me for a few more minutes. But He said: “I will be your share and your inheritance

I struggled with this for a few minutes. I was like.. “but God, they were the high priests. Arent you going to give them at least some of the land? ” But then i realized God was giving them more by giving them… well… Himself

whoa!

He is my share. He is my portion. He is my inheritance.

He and He alone.

I like Him better than a house, husband, car, and children.

#justsaying.

If you are in ministry today. And are worried about financial/emotional stability. Remember this: He is your share.

Happy Monday!




Jesus time this AM

Posted in Q' Time,Randomness by misspicture on April 15, 2010
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I dont always start my day with Jesus.

It is really stupid, actually. Why would i not start my day with Jesus?

Im going to try to do this like… everyday now.

enough said.

As i was enjoying a cup of coffee (which, by the way, should be next to Bibles, in christians stores… They go so well together) and reading the book of Numbers. I found a couple of verses that moved me to pray a prayer i never thought i would pray. I didnt really know i could pray this. But i did.

Aaron and Miriam were talking trash about moses’ new girlfriend (wife actually.. ) and God didnt like that. and look…

6 he said, “Listen to my words:
“When a prophet of the LORD is among you,
I reveal myself to him in visions,
I speak to him in dreams.

7 But this is not true of my servant Moses;
he is faithful in all my house.

8 With him I speak face to face,
clearly and not in riddles;

he sees the form of the LORD.
Why then were you not afraid
to speak against my servant Moses?” Numbers 12:6-8

did you see that?

God was like… “you know the other prophets? you know how i speak to them through visions and stuff? well… Moses is like my favorite! i talk to him face to face. no need for visions. I speak to him loud and clear”

what?

I asked God if i could be like Moses. Now, i never ever thought i would pray this. And i dont really know why. I just never found moses interesting. I always liked Abraham… with the whole “leave your country and your relatives and go to the land that i will show you…” thing. But Moses? i dont know.. I just never felt like we had something in common.

But i want to have something in common with him. Right now

I want God to talk to me face to face. Loud and clear. Like He used to talk to Moses.

Moses was really confident around God. And i think this might have had something to do with the way God spoke to him.

Moses has become, today, my favorite Bible character.

Who’s your favorite?
why?

Wholeness

Posted in Insights,Randomness by misspicture on April 14, 2010
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I have been implying this in every post for the past few weeks.

I have been writing about how much i love my life right now. And how much im enjoying my last few months in this land i call home.

I have bad days, of course….

But in the middle of the pain and loneliness and fear….

There is something that holds all my pieces together and gets me through those days.

I am freaking WHOLE

lonely

But whole.

There is nothing else i need.

well… maybe $35k

wanna support my mission?
more about that later.

My life is somehow perfect -with all its imperfections- right now.

And i am humbled by it.
I dont deserve this wholeness
But Jesus died so i could have it
and my job is to enjoy it.

Are you whole?

…………….
…………
……

What is missing in your life?

My prayer for you today is that you would replace whatever that is with, well… with Jesus.


Will you believe….?

Posted in Insights by misspicture on April 14, 2010
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Today (I actually wrote this last night) as i was talking to a friend and trying to encourage him. I spoke the words i needed for myself.

Has that ever happened to you?

Its kind of creepy-

My friend just heard from God But is waiting for the promise to be fulfilled.

The circumstances are saying NO
but God said yes…

I know what it is like to stand in that place

a place of insecurities
a place of doubts
a place of uncertainty…

So i told him this:

If God spoke… man! That is all you need to know. Just hold on to His words and wait for His promise to be fulfilled. regardless of the circumstances. Just know He has already done what He promised even if you dont see it right now.

can i get an AMEN?

BANG!

and then it hit me.

That is exactly what i needed to hear. Because I, just like my friend, am standing in that place of uncertainty right now. In the middle of God’s promise and the contradicting circumstances. Between a yes and a no.

How ironic is it that i expect my friend to trust God in spite of his circumstances but i am unable to do so myself. ?

ugh!!

this frustrates me!

Sometimes we have to forget about the world and just close our eyes and let daddy’s voice be our guide and the lamp to our feet.

Today.
I choose to believe what He said.
and give my circumstances a kick in the butt.

‘nough said.

A special message-

Posted in Randomness by misspicture on April 13, 2010
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I couldnt decide which one to post.

so im posting them both.

I am a real person #1 from Miss Picture on Vimeo.

I am a real person #2 from Miss Picture on Vimeo.

: )

BONUS- #Thankful

Posted in BONUS by misspicture on April 10, 2010
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Its 12:31 am and i cant sleep.

After all that Jonas Brothers talk i had today…..

GOSH! I dont want to like them this much. But i do! WHY>?!

They really are not that good. But their songs are just stuck in my little head.

anyways….

This is a happy post.

A thankful one.

Because there are people in this world that understand me. They love me. They get me. They read between the lines and they understand exactly what i want to say. People who finish my sentences.

People i will miss.

I am thankful today.

I am whole. I could live this live im living right now forever.

No need to change a thing.

God has been good.
He gets the glory.

Tuesday

Posted in Insights,Randomness by misspicture on April 7, 2010
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Hello there!

not much goin on right now.

My internet is not working. That’s why im posting this right now.

Today is tuesday. I cant believe monday is over already. And i can not believe i already forgot the fact that i celebrated Jesus’ resurection two days ago.

We make such a big deal of easter sunday in our churches.

but why?  i wonder

If we so easily forget….

May you be reminded today. Tuesday. That Jesus is alive. And He is able to do what He promissed He would do.

Take heart.
He has overcome the cross.

see how lost i am?
sorry.
It is actually wednesday today.

not tuesday.

blah/ 

 

I’m Back

Posted in Q' Time by misspicture on April 5, 2010
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Hello there readers. (is there anyone out there?)

I took a week off from blogging because i really didnt have anything good to say PLUS it was easter break! i had some napping and eating to do.

I want to start this new week with a simple question. Im hoping this blog will become a little bit more interactive.

What are you most afraid of right now?
why?

I will give you my answer tomorrow.


What’s your passion?

Posted in Q' Time by misspicture on March 23, 2010
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As you read HERE God is re-directing my vision and passion for Africa.

He has been tackling me with opportunities to serve/love/disciple young women in this city. And the more i pack my agenda with dates (with precious girls) the more i realize I was created for this.

I have a tendency to empathize.

I also have a tendency to hurt when they hurt and rejoice when they do.

I dont know. I just happen to have a heart for girls

I am passionate about it.

It all started one summer afternoon in Spain [2005]. When During an outreach I met a women who was going through a hard time. I picked a flower and handed it to her. Then she looked me in the eyes and said, “Thank you, this is who Jesus is.” When I saw her need, I realized that women in  Africa lack the love, value and acceptance that Jesus offers.  And that is why I feel called to minister there.

That day… I knew i was supposed to minister to women.

But there is one little problem. i kind of wasted 5 years of my life thinking that i was supposed to serve/love/disciple women over there. I forgot about the women God had placed in my life. Here

But its never too late

and so, I am investing my life in a few girls this year (or should i say 23 weeks?)

Would you please pray That God would make room in my busy agenda, so i can pour out my life in the lives of these girls?

Now. Its your turn
What is your passion?
How can i pray for you?

GO!

Smile :)

Posted in BONUS,Poetry by misspicture on March 22, 2010
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I feel so good…..

I smile like a mad woman
for no apparent reason
I smile
I smile like you were here
But you are not.

And that’s ok
no-one needs you around here
I may want you around
But i dont need you
not right now.

Not to smile.
I can do that without you-

: )

Once upon a rainbow…

Posted in BONUS,Poetry by misspicture on March 20, 2010
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Life goes UP
Life goes DOWN
Dreams change
Friends come and go
But You.
You, my dear
Are what keeps me trying
You, my love
Are the rainbow in my cloudy days.

I love you
Even when i dont feel like it.
I love you

and so, I dance…

At the sound of your silence
at the beat of your music

Once upon a rainbow

FLF- What donkey?

Posted in FLF by misspicture on March 19, 2010
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Today my mom is mad at me.

If you know me. You probably know how much that fact disturbs me.

But im fine today. Because i actually think she is wrong

Moving on!

I know God never changes. But for some reason i always thought the OT God wouldn’t hang out with Jesus. (im sorry. This is messed up theology. i know)

But then i found this-

“If you come across your enemy‘s ox or donkey wandering off, be sure to take it back to him”. Exodus 23: 4

For me this is the OT version of

“Love your enemies and pray for those who persecute you”. Matthew 5:44

His LOVE will never change.

EVER-

Who’s your enemy today?
Identify his donkey, and
be sure to take it back to him….

Have a great friday!


What do women want?

Posted in Q' Time,Randomness by misspicture on March 17, 2010
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I hate to say  this but this question is a really hard one to answer. Even for women.  I will do my best to explain what we really want in this post.

I came up with three things

1- We want our man to lead us spiritually- I think this is a big one. Even for non-believers. Im sure they dont call it that but deep inside women long for someone to follow. We want someone who loves us enough to protect out hearts, souls and minds by setting limits. We want him to  lead the way. We want him to be the one who initiates prayer times and start spiritual convos.

2- We want our man to be vulnerable- We want to know you trust us enough to get emotionally naked and be sure that we will love you just the same. we will.

3- We want to be told you love us- For some women this is by receiving gifts, or through quality time, or words of affirmation. It depends on her love language BUT one thing’s for sure. We need to be constantly reminded that you love us.

now, im sure there’s a lot of other things we want. But i think these are key and every women will agree.

now lets play a fun game. But i need all of you to participate. I want the girls reading this to add things to my 3-item list, say something women want that i didnt come up with. And Boys! what do you want?

set. Ready… GO!

Girls- What do women want?

Boys- WHAT DO YOU WANT?


BONUS-

Posted in 2x1=2,BONUS by misspicture on March 15, 2010
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I said i would write in spanish more.

but nah.

I’ll leave that for facebook.

This blog will remain an “english blog” (not sure if that makes sense)

Im sorry for my lack of consistency during these past few weeks. I have been a bad blogger and i hate that fact. Ill try to be better-

Today is sunday night and i grabbed my Bible for some 2×1 reading plan. But before that I said a quick prayer. Not very elaborated. It was simple.

Something like.

“-God, Im not going to ask you to confirm what you’ve already promised because you’ve already confirmed it about 4 times now. But please, help me, help me be confident that this is coming from you. And not my mind/heart. Lord, why is this taking so long? Why am I not seeing signs? why arnt the circumstances clear? – Amen”

Not a very spiritual prayer.

But that’s what i said. Didnt thank Him for today. Didnt praise Him. I just told Him that.

Its not the kind of prayer they teach you on sunday school.

Give me a break-

apparently He heard me. of course He did

I stumbled upon this.

When Pharaoh let the people go, God did not lead them on the road through the Philistine country, though that was shorter. For God said, “If they face war, they might change their minds and return to Egypt.” 18 So God led the people around by the desert road toward the Red Sea. [a] The Israelites went up out of Egypt armed for battle. Exodus 13:17-18

I dont know about you. But for me.

It is clear-

God didnt show the Israelites the short cut, primarily,to protect their future. (at least that’s how i see it) why do i say that? well, easy! Had they taken the short cut -the Bible says- They would have gone back to Egypt when faced with the first battle. And God didnt want them to go back to being slaves. He was protecting the promise He himself had made.

How does it relate to me?

There is a promise. An amazing promise that im having a hard time believing.

It’s just too good to be true.

But it is. Even if my head refuses to believe.

And it seems like God is not showing me the short cut right now, in order to protect His calling for my life (and i see how this applies in a practical way). But it also seems to me that, as He did with the israelites, He is taking me to my promised land (not an actual land). Eventually. When the time is right.

Read why Im believing this. HERE

My simple. Not elaborated-prayer was answered.

Thank you, Jesus.

Am i over reacting?

Am i misreading Scripture?

Am i crazy for believing this?

HELP

THOUGHTS?

Please.

BONUS- Ten reasons why…

Posted in 10 Things by misspicture on March 7, 2010
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Ten reasons why I believe God said YES.

1- Obedience to God let me to it

2- God has spoken various times. Through His words mostly

3- I had been praying for this exact same thing for about 7 years

4- I have peace in my heart like never before. I am not anxious

5- I have not cried a single tear.

6- Everytime i doubt. God gives me a reason to stop

7- This is all about God. It really is all about Him.

8- It feels right

9- The right people agree

10- There is really no reason for Him to say no.

11- God is still sitting in His throne

12- This really looks like something God would agree with

13- I was not expecting this.

14- I was not looking for this.

I know i said 10 things. blah!

u with me?

NEW CHALLENGE

Posted in Q' Time by misspicture on March 4, 2010
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OF COURSE!

Im almost done with the Daniel Fast. And i have been bad, bad, baaaad at sharing recipes and pictures of all the creative meals ive made.

sorry.

Since Daniel Fast will be over on monday i HAD to come up with a new challenge. (you know me…) And i did!

Im going to memorize scripture this month.

I still dont know what verses to pick.

Any suggestions?

Please!?

Im thinking 4 verses a week.

So… what book should i pick? or what key verses should i memorize?

Holiness

Posted in Daniel Fast,Randomness by misspicture on February 25, 2010
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But now you must be holy in everything you do, just as God who chose you is holy. 1 Peter 1:15

What does that even mean? to be holy…

Well.. Let’s ramble for a second or two.

Holiness is all about your heart. Its about your motives and not about your actions.

It really doesnt matter how many days you go on a Daniel Fast. If your heart is not growing closer to The Father, then i would say you are just on a diet. (guilty)

It doesn’t matter what you are giving up for lent. If you are not finding yourself more and more dependent on God. Then you are just following a crowd.

It doesnt matter how many “christian” books you read. If you are not learning about the character of God AND applying your knowledge about Him…. Then i would say you are wasting your time.

It doesnt matter how many hours a day you spend reading The Bible. If the information you are reading is not causing a transformation in you… Then you are missing the whole point.

Arent we so legalist sometimes? (Am i speaking for myself? come one… you are, too, sometimes. RIGHT?)

We -sometimes- do all these things ultimately to feel good about our-little-selves.

Holiness is an issue of the heart.

BUT how can we be holy when our heart is sick with sin?

Well i dont have an answer.

But my best shot would be that we need to examine our hearts everyday. and ask for forgiveness everyday.

This just hit me today as i realized i spent all my day watching “J.O.N.A.S” (yes… they have a tv. show. i love it) and it was 9pm and i had still not had my time alone with God. And im supposed to be fasting, right? Fasting for who? the jonas? i dont think so. So I sat down and asked for forgiveness.

And you know What?

He Forgave me.

as usual.

My heart is wicked. prideful. selfish. rebellious. I am so glad He chose to love me first.

Im in love with Him. ❤

FLF

Posted in FLF by misspicture on February 19, 2010
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Hello everyone!

Today, as you already know, is Facebook Less Friday.

And I will leave you with the video that made my night, last night. I dont know this guy but i know his parents and i just thought this video was HILARIOUS.

If you dont know what MPD is.
Or you have never had to go through it.
You wont find this funny, at all.

But let me tell you. It is.

Last night i tweeted that i had a crush on him. For those of you who asked. I DONT. I was just kidding. I promise.

He is Jim and Barb’s son. For goodness’ sake. That would be awkward.

Would you consider supporting this guy’s ministry?

MPD. Ministry Partners Development


What does a missionary look like?

Posted in Insights,Randomness by misspicture on February 17, 2010
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Last night someone told me i was too “snobby” to be a missionary. I laughed at first but then i felt sad.

What does a missionary look like?

Is it because i own a Mac?

Is it because i’ve been blessed with the opportunity to travel to a few countries?

Is it because i drive a nice truck?

It’s not mine. Not even close. Its my moms. Most of the times i take public transportation. But of course you dont know that.

Is it because i speak english?

What does a missionary look like?

TELL ME!

This whole time i thought it was a heart issue. That it didnt matter what you looked like or how you dressed or what you drove or what computer you owned. I thought the fact that i voluntarily wanted to give up all the comfort i have at home mattered. I am not rich, nor are my parents. But we have a comfortable life.

and guess what?

I dont want it.

I want to give, give, give, like a crazy lady. I want to give everything i have. I dont want comfort. I want Jesus.

I thought that made eligible for the missionary position

I wish i could just send that person an email with a list of all the things im doing to prepare myself for next year. How im being diligent, how bad i beg God every day to shape me,  to make me the woman He wants me to be and to teach me how to die to myself. everyday. every minute. every second.

But I wont.

No one needs to know that but Jesus.

And He already knows.

I still love this person, respect him and appreciate him.

But this hurt.

FLF

Posted in FLF by misspicture on February 12, 2010
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Today i just want to talk about a simple principle that is applicable to every situation in life.

“You cant help those who dont want to be helped”

You cant make them stop sinning.

You cant make them focus.

You cant make them read their Bible.

You cant make them a budget.

You cant organize their lifes.

You cant buy them more hours.

You cant fix their relationships.

You cant get them a job.

You cant!
Not if deep inside they really dont want to make adjustments in their lifes. You can share all your knowledge/experiences/testimonies with them or you could even set an example for them to follow. But if they dont want to. Boy! they just wont.

This is frustrating.

But my guess is you are only responsible  for what YOU do/say/think. What others do/say/think is really not your responsibility. You can set an example for them  But if they dont respond to it in a positive way. I would say you are out of it. Its their deal!

What do you think?

While you think. I will leave you with a little treasure i found. It’s been out there for a while now.I knew it was there. I just never took the time to listen.

I even have a friend who looks just like one of these three kids.

Where was I?

They even came to Venezuela and i missed them.

DARN it.
Same thing happened with the Backstreet boys. I discovered them a little too late.

Confession: I like the Jonas Brothers. Taylor Swift. And Miley Cirus

I might be a little too old to like them. But i do. so, shut up/

Have a great weekend.

Oh Oh OH! i almost forget!

What are your plans for valentines day?

: )


What im reading…

Posted in Insights by misspicture on February 11, 2010
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A good friend of mine, my leader, and my mentor, once told me to stop reading books about love and relationships.

I respect him.

So I Did.

For about a year.

He was right. I was thinking too much about it. And swallowing way too much information. Im glad i stopped. It helped me focus on THE  ultimate Book. The Bible.

But i picked this book up yesterday. My good friend Jyll – also one of my mentors-  gave this to me 2 years ago for my birthday. And as i started reading it again last night. The thoughts i had 2 years ago  came to mind and seemed so bizarre.

Let me break this down for you.

Two years ago i felt slapped in the face. As the writer described single women and the common mistakes they often make…. or should i say “we”? yeah… The mistakes WE often make.

But last night. I didn’t feel like that at all. I felt rather affirmed.

AND It scared the heck out of me!

I dont really know why. But it did

I had highlighted this: “Fourth, your marriage will only be as successful as your single life. Nurture wholeness where you are”

two years ago my thought was: My boyfriend/future husband will complete me. I will not be whole until i meet him.

My thought last night was: I am complete in You, Lord.

Needless to say, i was wrong two years ago.

suddenly the words in that book were not correcting my behavior anymore. They were encouraging me to keep doing what im already doing. And yes, it was a little scary but at the same time refreshing and liberating.

I am whole. I have found joy, contentment, hope, peace, love and even entertainment in my relationship with Jesus. I need nothing else. Dont get me wrong! i still want to get married and raise godly children. It’s one of my deepest desires. But Marriage is not an idol anymore. It used to be.

Im glad i realized that last night.

I will finish up that book one more time. But this time i wont be looking for answers.

Support Raising.

Posted in Support Raising by misspicture on February 8, 2010
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I was talking to one of my -possible- roommates for next year the other night and was telling her how scared i was about support raising. I told her i didnt even want to try. I am so not confident about this.

I KNOW in my mind God will provide. I am sure He will!  But for some reason i am not friends with the idea of “asking people for money” I am not good at it. Im scared about how vulnerable i will get and how lonely i will feel.

confession: I feel lonely right now. And i have not even started. I guess this is the life of a missionary.

I just cant do this.

I have ZERO skills.

But guess what?

I had my first donation last night.

And no. I dont know this person.

I didnt even ask for it.

It just came my way.

Unbelievable !

I dont even want to imagine what’s next in this journey. There is fear and lots of anxiety but there is also excitement. I feel like God is being so gracious and so clear. I have never felt Him so close and so involved in my life before.

Please keep praying for support. (i have not officially started. I will let you know when i do) I will keep you posted/

BONUS

Posted in BONUS by misspicture on February 6, 2010
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I have learned one thing over the past few days.

There is no point on getting mad at the people you love.

It is a waste of time.

Really!

When you get mad at someone. It doesnt affect them. It affects you. It makes YOU sad. It makes YOU grumpy.

Not them.
Actually, if you dont speak out. They wont even know you are mad.

Im just saying that it is always better to forgive and forget

Dont throw your relationships out the window. Not every single thing you dislike is a reason to argue.

If there is one thing i want my friends and family to say about me is:

She’s graceful. And forgiving.

Are you being graceful and forgiving?

Im not. But im trying.

Always keep in mind that God is graceful and forgiving.

Who are we not to do the same for others?

It is all about selflessness.

FLF

Posted in FLF by misspicture on February 4, 2010
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My baby brother had not been feeling well for the past two days. He had a fever yesterday morning but he was fine by noon.

He was happily napping. I was watching glee right beside him. my right hand was touching his little left leg.

Fever was apparently gone.

Out of the blue he started shaking and getting all red.

a convulsion.

My beloved almost son was having a convulsion.

I left the room, holding his little shaking body, screaming! Shortly enough we (me, my cousin, and the lady who helps us at the house)  -literally-  ran to the nearest med. center. It took us about 4 min. [Thank you Chavez] and there they put him on an oxigen masc, gave him some shots and then we (me and the baby) got into the shower so the fever would go down.

2 hours later. He was fine. He IS fine.

But me. I am still shaking.

The whole time i was at the med. center holding my -hardly breathing- brother i was singing “Holy is the Lord, God Almighty… The earth is filled with His glory…” while bawling my eyes out. And Let me tell you. It is not easy. It is not easy to sing and cry at the same time. It is not easy to see the person you love the most in this world having so much trouble to breathe. It is not easy to NOT be in control. It is not easy to be thankful…. It wasnt easy to remain thankful yesterday.

When i got home. I prayed this prayer. While still bawling my eyes out. “God. I dont get it. But it doesnt matter. I choose to worship You. You are good. You are good”

He is good. He will never cease to be good. Ever.

Yesterday was officially the worst day of my life.

Not only because my brother had a convulsion. But mostly because i realized how much i love him. I love him so much it hurts.

He is my Isaac.

And God is asking me to leave him.

and I will. In 30 weeks.

I am devastated. It hurts. It hurts so much it gets hard to breathe.

But one thing remains clear.

God is good.
and my circumstances  are unable to change that.

Be encouraged! Stay strong! Remain Thankful!

:)

Posted in Randomness by misspicture on February 4, 2010
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Last night i had my share of quality time. I went out with a group of friends and just talked and talked for two good hours. I left that place with a big smile on my face.

ah! i love having friends. Im the kind of person who has various groups of friends. I have the high-school friends. College friends. Church friends. work friends. and French-class friends. And i love them all!

After being stuck in the house since last sunday i really needed to go out and “see the world”.

It was worth it. It was different.

Last night i went to bed knowing that everything is right with the world. I am comfortable with who i am. My life is somehow perfect right now. There is nothing else i need. I think i have never felt like this before- ever.

I am ready to grow up.
Move forward
And enjoy what God has planned.

Because today.
Today is just the first day of the rest of my life.

🙂

10 THINGS i dont want.

Posted in 10 Things by misspicture on February 2, 2010
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In no particular order

I DONT want…

1- To ever allow anything or anyone to take God’s place in my life

2- To not be able to keep contact with my friends while in Africa

3- To miss my little brother’s 2nd birthday and his first day of school

4- To have someone else cook for my husband and kids. I will be the Queen of that kitchen (even if its tiny) im telling you. No one feeds my family but momma.

5- To have someone else raise my kids.

6- To be scared about support raising. Im about to pee my pants- scared

7- To ignore what i believe God has been telling me.

8- To be confused about what i believe God has been telling me.

9- To have a busy schedule this year

10- To be in this “detox” diet. But im just supporting my mom you know… IM STARVING! Daniel fast is going to kill me in 14 days.

My LOVE language [Parte DOS]

Posted in Randomness by misspicture on February 1, 2010
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Ok. I cant stop thinking about my love language.

And it just HIT me.

This is the way i relate to God. It is the way i show Him i love Him.

I spend time with Him.

That is why i struggle SO much with quiet time. When i dont sit down and spend quality time with Him i feel like im not loving Him.

tricky, huh?!

Oh! the things you learn about yourself….

I like this though.

I LOVE the fact that having a quiet time is not just a ritual in my day but an act of love and worship. While i sit down with a cup of tea (yes, tea is mandatory) and with an open Bible i feel (and He knows because He made me this way) on my highest level of love. yes. si!

I am amazed by this.

I LOVE IT.

what about you? how do you feel like you are loving God the most?

My LOVE language

Posted in Randomness by misspicture on February 1, 2010
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I  have been thinking a lot about this lately and i think i know what’s my love language.

according to a book by Gary Chapman there are 5 ways we can give and receive love.

– Words of affirmation

– Quality time

– Gifts

– Acts of service

– Physical touch

For me its quality time. HANDS DOWN

If you know me you know im a people person. I love people and getting to know them. In fact. That is one of the reasons…. or i could even say.. THE reason why im not a big movie fan. You cant talk while watching a movie. at least you shouldnt. I would rather go out for tea (we dont really have coffee shops in vzla) and just talk and talk and talk for hours. Thats me.

I love getting to know people and just engaging in deep conversations. I love listening and being able to give advices.

I do enjoy time alone. I need it. daily.

But i get my energy from people and conversations. It’s just the way i am

I dont necessarily have to be the one doing the talking. Its ok if im just the listener. Silence is often welcomed and enjoyed.

Im all about company.

Quality is what matters. not so much quantity.

That’s how i show love.
But that is also how i expect to be loved.

I expect to be listened to. I expect you to engage in our conversation. I expect you to leave your cellphone/laptop/ipod in your pocket.

maybe im expecting a little too much…? maybe.

That’s me. raw me.

But.. Whats your love language?

🙂

ps: the picture above was stolen from Heather Whittaker. It took me almost 4 hours to find the perfect picture. It was worth it. This describes my love language. perfectly.

FLF

Posted in FLF by misspicture on January 29, 2010
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yeah…

Im having a sushi discipleship date with Nore. AND im exciteed!!

we are studying Philipians and it has been amazing to learn about our weaknesses and how they can bring glory to God. well.. that’s actually today’s study.

Nore dont read this.

I also found this website HERE and im currently watching GREEK

I love that show.

I leave you with some worship

Yes… in french.

Roi des cieux- Dan Luiten

Oh McDonalds!

Posted in Randomness by misspicture on January 28, 2010
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waiter: Good afternoon, what can i get for you?
Me: Good afternoon, Can i  just have a Pepsi light please?
Waiter: Ok. What can i get you to drink?
Me: uhm.. a can of pepsi light please.
Waiter: Pepsi?
Me: yes, sir
Waiter: Did you just say light?

Oh Boy!

Have you ever had this happen to you?

Did you miss me?

Posted in Randomness by misspicture on January 27, 2010
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Im not really sure what to blog about. I think im a little rusty from the strike. Which im so glad i did by the way…

Ok so a few things happened while a i was gone…

1- I started Discipleship or DSHIP, as i liked to call it, with my friend Nore

2- I filled out my application to go to Africa for a year.

3- I asked my pastor, my best friend, my ex-boss, and my mentor (Sorry Jyll i would have asked you, but you are in the DR. I love you!) to fill out my references.

4- I discovered a hidden love for Jazz. So far i like, Norah Johns, Michael Buble, and Jamie Cullum. (Marcus. your recommendations are on my “to listen” list)

5- I really really like  “Vanilla Twilight” by owl city

6- Im not sure if Romans 8:25 was a “yes, but wait” answer. And this is pretty much killing me.

7- ZACH IS DONE WITH SUPPORT! woohooo

8- My friend Ryan bought his ticket to go to Uganda for two years as a missionary. If you want to know how you can support him. Ask me. Double wooohoooo

9- Im going on a Daniel Fast starting FEB 15th.

10- I will read the book of Ruth 21 times. (once a day while fasting) Cant wait!

11- There is a reason why i picked that book. dont ask.

12- My baby brother gets cuter and cuter

13- My job description has changed to pretty much “change diapers and play with a 14 month old”

14- I like my new job.

15- I still go to the office. When strictly necessary. My boss (AKA: mom) would rather have me here taking care of her boy, than at the office. SCORE!

16- Im flipping scared about support raising.

17- I may or may not know one of my roommates for next year. 🙂

18- I may have or may have not found a Venezuelan  to go to Africa with me in Sept. 🙂

19- Venezuela has 2 hours black-outs a day. One dollar costs more than a bottle of water AND the government is killing students all over the country. to name a few things….

20- God is still in Control.

21- God is re-directing my passion for Africa. My vision is blurry but i know it involves college students.

22- Man.. this makes me want to dance. God bless Latin America 🙂

Now. PLEASE. Tell me. Did you miss me?
Because i missed you.

STRIKE IS OVER!

Posted in Randomness by misspicture on January 26, 2010
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ZACH IS DONE WITH SUPPORT!

Check back tomorrow- OR later today. who knows?

Have a GREAT day!

To all the crazy people out there…

Posted in Randomness by misspicture on January 19, 2010
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Thanks for your comments and ideas-

I pray God will continue to straighten you as you continue to do CRAZY things. 🙂

I heard that one of my friends is going on a last minute mission trip. And i just thought: “This is it, Jesus.  This is it”

I want a heart that listen to the voice of God and ACTS on it. Instantly.

I think i came up with my crazy thing.

Giving up 65% the money destined for entertainment on my budget. For 3 months.

Starting feb 1.
until April 30.

May 1st. I am SO going out to eat.

It’s not much. But it hurts. And if it hurts its sacrificial. If its sacrificial… then that’s what im doing.

Random thought: Going to Africa sounds crazy enough to me…. HA!

This a very shapeless post. Im just throwing random thoughts in here.

oh well!

Keep it up! Keep living a crazy life for Jesus. And let me know how it goes….

Oh! oh! Before i forget.

I have the application-for my One year internship in Africa- sitting right next to me. Half done.

I cant believe this is happening.

I am scared.

CRAZY THING

Posted in Randomness by misspicture on January 18, 2010
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Did you read my BONUS post this saturday?

well…

I was determined to do something CRAZY for Jesus and step out of my comfort zone so others could be blessed.  Now, Im still determined to do it but im just not going to do that particular thing.

Ill spare you of the details… But my parents didn’t approve. In fact they felt offended.

Not a good thing.

Im frustrated though. I REALLY wanted to do that thing. (not because i wanted wanted to. But because i knew it would allow me to be more dependent on God)

Oh well.

Im trying to come up with something else that is crazy. And i’ve got a rough idea of what that might be… But im not sure yet.

I will let you know soon. Stay tuned.

Thanks for all the support.

What is something -CRAZY- You are currently doing? How are you dying to yourself so that others can be blessed?

It’s Monday!

Posted in Q' Time,Randomness by misspicture on January 17, 2010
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It’s monday and since  i pretty much blogged during the weekend. Im going to keep it simple today.

I just want to ask you a simple question… or two.

If you are reading this.

what’s your name? and where are you from?

I really want to know who reads this blog. Dont ignore me!

set, ready…. GO!


BONUS

Posted in BONUS by misspicture on January 15, 2010
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SEE how much i love you -my readers-? Im writing a BONUS post on a friday!

I have a raw idea of what i want to say… Ill do my best to develop it as a write. It’s how i roll/ If i wait. I loose it.

where do i start?

uhm..

Disclaimer: I dont usually write about this. Not because i dont want to but because it is just not the purpose of this blog. But what im feeling right now is well worth blogging about.

If you’ve spent some time with me. You probably know that i dont hide what i feel. Sometimes i wish i could hide my feelings and just keep my mouth shut. But i just cant. Sometimes im proud of it. Sometimes im ashamed of it. It depends.

the thing is… Oh man, i cant believe im really going to write this on a public blog.

He is funny. He is not very good at telling jokes but for some reason they make me laugh. he gets all excited if i laugh when anyone else is. He is cute. He is mature with a little sparkle of immatureness. He is taller than me. He is a gentleman. He thinks about marriage a lot. More than anyone around him knows. He has a neat bed and a very organized tiny room. He knows how to match his dress pants with the right shirt. He can clean the floor like any one i know. He is protective. He opens the door for girls. He is a faithful and caring friend. He is shy.

He is head-over-hills in love with Jesus. He keeps a journal. He is one of the best christians i’ve met. He is humble and genuine. He has guy friends. He has a servant’s heart. He actually reads his bible and lives it. He looks right into my eyes.

But he walks out the room whenever our conversations get interesting.

crap.

too good to be true.

Meet my brother…

Posted in Randomness by misspicture on January 13, 2010
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He is the cutest thing in the world. He is precious to me. Specially because he came out of no-where and to me he is the best picture of the hand of God doing the impossible.

My baby brother is my joy and what i love the most in this world-

BUT!

He wont let me take pictures of himself….

It is nearly impossible.

here are some of the best…

Wordless Post: LOL

Posted in Word-less post by misspicture on January 11, 2010
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Im the worst christian ever. BONUS

Posted in BONUS by misspicture on January 9, 2010
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dad: Can i borrow your cellphone?

me: sure!

after a few minutes i went to where he was and told him (not-so-politely): “You are going to consume all my minutes!!!!”

went back to my room and felt horrible

I am the worst christian ever.

I just finished reading CRAZY LOVE by Francis Chan. Awesome book. But what happened to all the words i had just read? why did i have to be so selfish and be a jerk to my dad? why did i not love him? why didnt i show Jesus to him?

I am the worst christian ever. I am ashamed

I need to go apologize-

now.

10 Things im thankful for

Posted in 10 Things by misspicture on January 7, 2010
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in no particular order

1- Friends. Faithful friends. Fun friends. Friends who never write back. Cool friends. New friends. Twitter/blog friends. Missionary friends. I am so blessed for all of them

2- Grace. Mercy. Jesus

3- DUDE! im going to freaking North Africa in september

4- My supporters who are also my friends

5- French classes.

6- Christmas breaks

7- Family

8- My church

9- Steven Furtick and Perry Noble

10- The word of God.

What are you thankful for?

?!@#$%~!!!

Posted in Randomness by misspicture on January 6, 2010
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Guess who’s going to North Africa in september?

yeah…

My pastor said yes.

and i know i should write a better post considering how big of a deal this is for me. but… words are just not coming out.

Thoughts- BONUS

Posted in BONUS by misspicture on December 29, 2009
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Here are some thoughts after a bad day…

1- I miss my Ms in a way i never thought i would.
2- Im on my own in this.
3- No-one here understands
4- They will not understand
5- And that’s ok
6- I dont like # 2, 3 and 4. But its all part of the process
7- I asked for forgiveness. Being this miserable doesnt bring glorty to God
8- I miss my M* girls
9- I would take that plane tomorrow if i could
10- Its just me and God.
11- This next year is going to be challenging
12- I am growing. I am growing. I become a new creature with every passing day. He is my perfecter. I am becoming more like Him.
13- Boy, i am selfish!
14- Jesus is fixing that. Dont worry.
15- Sadness is over.
16-Im on my own.
17- No one understands
18- repeat # 8
19- My spirit is listening
20- My relationship with Him has never been stronger
21- #20 is true just because of # 2,10 and 16
22- waiting sucks
23- I LOVE my life
24- I HATE waiting
25- I am doing this right. I am doing life right. This is right.
26- I may or may not go to N.A next year
27- But. I am doing this right.
28- I love blogging
29- I just finished the book of Acts and i start Romans tomorrow. (8 days until i finish up the Bible)
30- I think Acts is my -new- favorite book of the Bible.
31- Be still and Know that I am God- Psalms 46:10
32- I am doing this right. I have bad days. But im doing this right.
33- Thank you Jesus.

Saturday -BONUS- Post

Posted in BONUS by misspicture on December 19, 2009
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First of all. THANK YOU for your prayers! I really appreciate all your text messages, emails, calls and tweets.

My meeting went super well. My pastor was super kind in giving me all the time i needed to share my story and my thoughts about the trip. He also told me that he believed in my call and that, as a church, they were planning on sending me. He just didnt know when and how.

Yeah…

We are meeting again in january.
He promised to have an answer to the when and how then.

I will let God show him what He showed me. Gen 28;15

I am still processing this.

What do you think i should do?

Changing the subject….

Have i told you about my friends lately?

I have many, many good friends that i love and cherish.

But there are 3…. M*, A* and S* and they have the best friend tag in my soul.

M* is a girl and i always blog about her. She will have her chance to shine in this blog. But i wont talk about her today. Though i keep her close to my heart.

Today. It will be about the two boys that have won my heart. A* and S*. They are my brothers, my friends, my travel buddies. They let me tell them what to wear, and im always invited to their family parties. When they have stupid boy-fights they call me and ask for advice. They tickle me. They drive me home. sometimes they pay for my meals. sometimes they open the door for me. They buy me christmas presents. They care about me. They love me.

And i love them. deeply

I will have TWO “best men” @ my weeding- I dont care what my groom says-  And it will be them.

I have been so blessed to be able to share my life with these two.

Watch out, girls! If you ever date one of them. You will have to go through their little sister first! AKA: me!

Today is a good day. A good day to be thankful.
Thankful for godly men in my life.

Enjoy the rest of the weekend.!

FLF- 8 seconds or less

Posted in FLF by misspicture on December 18, 2009
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Welcome to my Facebook-Less Friday post.

Today is my BIG meeting with my pastor.

I am going to tell him all about my trip to Africa and that God told me loud and clear to go back in sept for a year. [i dont know what he might think about that] so.. would you PLEASE! pray?

You dont have to pray for hours…. you can just take 8 seconds of your precious and valuable time to say something like “God, show up in that meeting” or “Jesus, help her not to worry” or “Lord, soften her pastor’s heart” out-loud !

I NEED your prayers.

Here’s why…

1- I am going to show him my heart in that meeting. I am going to share about my fears and my dreams
2- He might want me to stay here for a few more years. But i feel like i would be disobeying  God if i were to stay.
3- I know i should obey God’s voice rather than my pastors opinions…. But its just not easy. I know that my pastor is a man of God and he wants the best for me. So his opinion is very very important for me.
4- I just want you to be a part of what God is doing in my life.

So please… 8 seconds or less. Please pray!

And i might bless you with a saturday post. Just to let you know that your prayers were answered.

So lets make of this Facebook-Less Friday. A Prayer-Full Friday!

To be continued….

Wordless Post.

Posted in Word-less post by misspicture on December 14, 2009
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Selfless Love

Posted in Insights by misspicture on December 14, 2009
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What kind of love is that?

Is that the kind 1 corinthians 13 talks about? I would say so.

That is the kind of love Jesus gave. It is the kind of love i want to give. It is the kind of love God is teaching me to, fisrt, experience so i can, then, share  with others.

A love that is not based on feelings or in being confortable but a love that is based on a decision. Sometimes things happen and you feel like the person you once said you loved is not so loveable anymore because of something they did or said.

when that happens i realize that real love does not cease. Real love never stops. Real love will always love. Real love does not depend on circumnstances. Real love never dies.

The Bible says (cant remember where) that your yes should always be yes and your no should always be no. When the words “I- Love- You” come out of my mouth. I want them to represent my commitment to stand by that person forever, no-matter-what.

Do me a favor. And do God a favor (not that you can really do Him favors… but you get the idea) Dont take those words for granted. And when you do say “I love you”  let it be forever.  Otherwise, i would consider you a liar.

God is impressing this in my heart. So BAD!
Be encoraged! God loves you with this kind of love. A-M-A-Z-I-N-G

Anything you’d like to say…?

Selfish: To Be or Not To Be……??

Posted in Insights by misspicture on December 12, 2009
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This is the big question i am struggling with right now.

You know the answer
I know the answer

But… It is HARD mostly because my flesh is lauder than my spirit.

There are many situations in my life right now. Where i am constantly being tempted to be selfish and to focus on my wants and my needs. It is so easy to get lost in what makes me feel uncomfortable an what makes me mad. But what about others? what about those i say i love?

If i focus on myself. Is it real love? or is it selfish love?
WAIT. Can the words love and selfish be in the same sentence?

I dont think so.

Love is all about giving.

Loving someone means you put them first. It means biting your thong  when you dont have anything good to say. It means listening even when you want them to shut up so you can speak. It means waiting. It means patience. And it means forever

Yes! Forever.

What am i learning?

Easy! Ok, ok…. its not that easy.
But God is teaching me how to die to myself and put others first. I am painfully learning to protect the ones i love from my selfishness. Once again… It is not about me.

Living a life like Jesus’ is not an easy job. But it is worth it. And i love the fact that everything happens for a reason. And i am constantly learning how to be the woman He created me to be.

I love you Jesus. Thank you for your selfless love.

What about you?

Have you been a selfish little brat this week?

What do you see?

Posted in Randomness by misspicture on December 7, 2009
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I just read this qoute by Cs. Lewis. “What you see and what you hear has a lot to do with where you are standing”

so i find myself going through my thoughs searching for some of the things i have been seeing/hearing lately… And its funny because i have been seeing bad things comming but the second i think about them i hear a voice gentenly saying : “It will be ok. Everything is going to be ok”

And im not sure why im writting this down. Or what all these mean. But i know one thing… No matter what my eyes see. My spirit still listens to His voice. THE voice.

and for that. I am glad.

What about you?
What are you seeing/hearing?

QT

Posted in Randomness by misspicture on December 5, 2009
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QT stands for Quiet time. And i do not know how many times im going to have to write about this. But this is just something i really struggle with. It is so hard for me to find a spot in my day to sit and JUST be with the Lord. Im not at a point in my walk where it comes out naturally. I have to be intentional about it. very intentional.

This week has been horrible. I have been horrible. No discipline. at all.

And i have been feeling guilty, distracted and too busy to do something about it.

And i need to change that. It needs to change. Today

So, this is where you step in.
Is this something you, too, struggle with?
If so, how do you manage to be intentional about it? 
Help! 

10 Things i love about Africa

Posted in 10 Things by misspicture on November 29, 2009
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In no particular order

1- People
2- Food
3- weather
4- hanus
5- Ice cream
6-maids
7-The one coffee shop
8-That you can go to the sea and just walk by the shore just about anytime you want
9- Hospitality
10-  taxi drivers

1st Post!

Posted in Randomness by misspicture on October 7, 2009
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Hello Everyone!

Thanks for stopping by. This is still under construction!

How do i look?

Love-
MP