The Heart of a Missionary-


Generational wisdom.

Posted in BONUS by misspicture on September 5, 2010

God has been given me the opportunity to talk to a few older women lately and spend quality time with them.

One is haply married.

One is struggling to stay married.

One has been divorced for over 5 years and is back to dating a wonderful and godly man

The other one is a widow.

I am single.

And It has been such a blessing to talk to them and learn about married life, how to talk to your husband, how to be flexible, what not to do, how to fix it when you screw it up, and how to love him until the day he dies.

I want to be one of those women -I hope Im already one- who invest their time and plant seeds of wisdom into younger women. This is just the way it’s supposed to be.

If you are married, go find someone who’s not and invite them into your home. Do life with them. We, single people, need to see godly marriages function.

If you are single, go find a godly married couple and babysit for free. Get yourself in that home. watch. and learn.

This generation needs wisdom. Wisdom from people who have already been where we are.

I am so thankful for my married friends. And Im looking forward to babysitting for a few (3?) couples this fall while in Africa.

Fill us up and [then] send us out.

Posted in BONUS,Insights by misspicture on September 5, 2010

I have been thinking about the lyrics from this song.

We must go.

Keep us from just singing.

We must go.

I was praying for my ministry partners today. all of you. And there are no words to express how thankful I am for you and your giving heart.

And then I realized that there are so many people making a difference for Jesus in this world

All of you who regularly go to the nations
All of you who sponsor a child
All of you adoptive parents
All of you college ministry peeps
All of you christians working secular jobs
All of you mentors
All of you long term missionaries
All of you prayer warriors
All of you bloggers who blog for Jesus.

We are on the same team. We work for the King.  Lets keep it up.

Fill us up
and
Send us out

Let that be our battle cry.

I want to encourage you to keep doing what you are doing. But never forget. never forget. That in order to do what you are doing for Him, you need to be filled up with His spirit and His word first.

There is no other way to do things.


Sunday BONUS: I am Samuel, You are Saul

Posted in BONUS by misspicture on June 13, 2010

Saul was just a handsome young man who was on a mission. He was out looking for some donkeys that were missing. Since he and his servant couldn’t find them they decided to go to The Prophet Samuel’s house to ask him what to do and where to find the donkeys.

What Saul didnt know is that God had already told Samuel that he was going to be Israel’s first king and his visit to the Prophet’s house was not going to end up the way he expected.

This specifically spoke to my heart in a very personal and simple way.

I was driving to church this morning and all of the sudden it started raining. and we, Maracaibo people dont know how to deal with the rain. Everything stops when it rains. We are not used to rain at all. It NEVER rains down here.

But today, it rained. So here i am freaking out in the car. waiting to find a parking spot at chuch and figuring out how fast was I going to run in order to keep my hair dry. In the middle of my thinking i decided to just go somewhere else and spend some quality time with Jesus. Just He and me.

so I did.

And i went to the ONLY park we have in this city. (I was inspired by one of my team mates Nate) and sat down and talked to Jesus for a good hour. And among other things i asked Him to bring in the support i need to go to Africa and a husband.

While reading the way Samuel dealt with Saul i felt God telling me: “I am Samuel, you are Saul”

19 “I am the seer,” Samuel replied. “Go up ahead of me to the high place, for today you are to eat with me, and in the morning I will let you go and will tell you all that is in your heart.As for the donkeys you lost three days ago, do not worry about them; they have been found” 1 Sam 9:19-20

I really think God took care of the donkeys so that Saul’s mind could be focused on what He, through Samuel, was going to tell him that night. What a great God we serve!

“My Child, do not worry about support. I have already raised it. Come dine with me
Do not worry about your future spouse. That’s already taken care of. Come spend time with me
Dont worry about your needs. I have already met them. Let’s be friends
What will you drink or eat? My child, I already know what you need even before you Ask. Just be with me.
Do not worry about the sickness. Do not worry about the job. Do not worry about the children. Do not worry about the wether. Do not worry about your parents. Do not worry about Africa. Do not worry about money. Do not worry about anything. For everything is already taken care of.”

Did you need this today?

I sure did.

It was so refreshing and eye opening! we are so little and our God is so great!

May you be encouraged, today, to focus on Jesus. Enjoy His company, spend time with Him, fall in love with Him and that thing you are worried about…. well, He has already taken care of your situation.

BONUS- #Thankful

Posted in BONUS by misspicture on April 10, 2010
Tags: , , ,

Its 12:31 am and i cant sleep.

After all that Jonas Brothers talk i had today…..

GOSH! I dont want to like them this much. But i do! WHY>?!

They really are not that good. But their songs are just stuck in my little head.

anyways….

This is a happy post.

A thankful one.

Because there are people in this world that understand me. They love me. They get me. They read between the lines and they understand exactly what i want to say. People who finish my sentences.

People i will miss.

I am thankful today.

I am whole. I could live this live im living right now forever.

No need to change a thing.

God has been good.
He gets the glory.

BONUS- Sonet of the unseen

Posted in BONUS,Poetry by misspicture on March 24, 2010
Tags: , , ,

For some reason.
Deep inside my wildest dreams.
You are *already* mine.
I *already* have you.
You are here, with me.

Not even your absence can change that.

This is a reality.
In my heart,
in my mind.
and most importantly.
It is a reality 

In  heaven.

Hello: Im NUMB

Posted in BONUS by misspicture on March 24, 2010
Tags: ,

Some things just randomly stop hurting. Some things you just get used to. And as scary as that sounds. numbness is what i need right now.

So bring it on, life!

BRING.
IT.
ON.

Im numb.

Cant feel anything.

At least not today-

: )

Smile :)

Posted in BONUS,Poetry by misspicture on March 22, 2010
Tags: , , , ,

I feel so good…..

I smile like a mad woman
for no apparent reason
I smile
I smile like you were here
But you are not.

And that’s ok
no-one needs you around here
I may want you around
But i dont need you
not right now.

Not to smile.
I can do that without you-

: )

Once upon a rainbow…

Posted in BONUS,Poetry by misspicture on March 20, 2010
Tags: , , , , ,

Life goes UP
Life goes DOWN
Dreams change
Friends come and go
But You.
You, my dear
Are what keeps me trying
You, my love
Are the rainbow in my cloudy days.

I love you
Even when i dont feel like it.
I love you

and so, I dance…

At the sound of your silence
at the beat of your music

Once upon a rainbow

It’s TRUE :)

Posted in BONUS by misspicture on March 19, 2010
Tags: , ,

I hate your favorite songs
I hate your glasses
I hate your vocabulary
and your inside jokes.

{

But I miss the hug
The one i didnt give you

}

But im looking forward to a lifetime of those.

It’s true.
Waiting is not-so horrible when you are waiting for the right thing.

and you,
You are the right thing.
Its true-

BONUS-

Posted in 2x1=2,BONUS by misspicture on March 15, 2010
Tags: , , , ,

I said i would write in spanish more.

but nah.

I’ll leave that for facebook.

This blog will remain an “english blog” (not sure if that makes sense)

Im sorry for my lack of consistency during these past few weeks. I have been a bad blogger and i hate that fact. Ill try to be better-

Today is sunday night and i grabbed my Bible for some 2×1 reading plan. But before that I said a quick prayer. Not very elaborated. It was simple.

Something like.

“-God, Im not going to ask you to confirm what you’ve already promised because you’ve already confirmed it about 4 times now. But please, help me, help me be confident that this is coming from you. And not my mind/heart. Lord, why is this taking so long? Why am I not seeing signs? why arnt the circumstances clear? – Amen”

Not a very spiritual prayer.

But that’s what i said. Didnt thank Him for today. Didnt praise Him. I just told Him that.

Its not the kind of prayer they teach you on sunday school.

Give me a break-

apparently He heard me. of course He did

I stumbled upon this.

When Pharaoh let the people go, God did not lead them on the road through the Philistine country, though that was shorter. For God said, “If they face war, they might change their minds and return to Egypt.” 18 So God led the people around by the desert road toward the Red Sea. [a] The Israelites went up out of Egypt armed for battle. Exodus 13:17-18

I dont know about you. But for me.

It is clear-

God didnt show the Israelites the short cut, primarily,to protect their future. (at least that’s how i see it) why do i say that? well, easy! Had they taken the short cut -the Bible says- They would have gone back to Egypt when faced with the first battle. And God didnt want them to go back to being slaves. He was protecting the promise He himself had made.

How does it relate to me?

There is a promise. An amazing promise that im having a hard time believing.

It’s just too good to be true.

But it is. Even if my head refuses to believe.

And it seems like God is not showing me the short cut right now, in order to protect His calling for my life (and i see how this applies in a practical way). But it also seems to me that, as He did with the israelites, He is taking me to my promised land (not an actual land). Eventually. When the time is right.

Read why Im believing this. HERE

My simple. Not elaborated-prayer was answered.

Thank you, Jesus.

Am i over reacting?

Am i misreading Scripture?

Am i crazy for believing this?

HELP

THOUGHTS?

Please.

BONUS

Posted in BONUS by misspicture on February 19, 2010
Tags: , , , , ,

I want to write about so many things right now i dont know where to start.

First off i want to ask all of the bloggers out there a question. Or two.

Why did i have 24 readers yesterday. But had 5 readers the day before? What makes a blog readable? what made it readable yesterday? Im curious

There is something else.

I am pregnant

No.

Not with a baby.

With a vision. A new vision

And as scary as it sounds. It is not for Africa.

For the past few months God has been re-directing my passion for Africa. He wants me there next year. I would even say He wants me there for a good 2-5 years. *This is yet to be confirmed* But I really believe God wants me somewhere else after that. Doing something i love to do.

But there is one problem with that. People will not believe this. Because i cant count how many times i have said God was not calling me there. And He wasn’t. But He may be now. People will criticize me im sure.

I know i shouldnt be thinking about this now. Because im just 28 weeks away from seeing the fulfillment of God’s promise to my life. Something ive been waiting for 4 years.

But it just hit me today.

This leaves me thinking that God is able to re-direct the vision He’s already given you. And re-define the passion of your heart. For the sake of His great calling for your life. Note that im not saying “change” im using the terms “re-direct” and “re-define” as indicators that there is a core value, if you would. And that will never change.

What do you think? Do you think God can do that?

BONUS

Posted in BONUS by misspicture on February 6, 2010
Tags: , , , , , , ,

I have learned one thing over the past few days.

There is no point on getting mad at the people you love.

It is a waste of time.

Really!

When you get mad at someone. It doesnt affect them. It affects you. It makes YOU sad. It makes YOU grumpy.

Not them.
Actually, if you dont speak out. They wont even know you are mad.

Im just saying that it is always better to forgive and forget

Dont throw your relationships out the window. Not every single thing you dislike is a reason to argue.

If there is one thing i want my friends and family to say about me is:

She’s graceful. And forgiving.

Are you being graceful and forgiving?

Im not. But im trying.

Always keep in mind that God is graceful and forgiving.

Who are we not to do the same for others?

It is all about selflessness.

BONUS- URGENT

Posted in BONUS by misspicture on January 20, 2010
Tags: , , ,

I have a burden in my heart

would you take a minute to read this?
and probably support my friend who’s going to Haiti. you can just give $1

http://zachpippin.com/haiti/

Everyone wants to do something about Haiti, right? Every one is talking about how the church needs to shine and step up. You’ve said it. I’ve said it.

I have heard of a bunch of organizations who are asking for money, even celebrities are giving to this cause. But when Zach told me that he changed his plans to go to Nicaragua and is going to Haiti FOR FIVE MONTHS instead… I thought. Now! this is what people in Haiti need.

They need the food you’ve sent, they need the water you’ve bought. But they also need men and women who are willing to be Jesus to them.

TO PROOVE MY COMMITMENT TO THIS CAUSE AND MY SUPPORT TO MY FRIEND ZACH.

I AM OFFICIALLY ON  A BLOG STRIKE.
until you step up and start being the church.

he is asking for $1. You have that!

See you when Zach is done with support!

BONUS- challenge

Posted in BONUS by misspicture on January 17, 2010
Tags: , , , ,

This is another saturday post.

welcome! 🙂

Last week i read an awesome book by Francis Chan called CRAZY LOVE. It talks about so many things that it’s hard to paraphrase but if i had to describe it with a word it would be challenging

You have to read it. It will change the way you live your “christian” life.

And i have been thinking about what is it that God wants me to do specifically. What does He want me to change? In what areas of my life am i living a lukewarm christianity?

Today  i listened to this message by Francis Chan. Look for \”Lukewarm and loving it\” This will slap you in the face.

And i know what God wants me to do.

and… can i say OUCH!?

1- It is something i dont want to do

2- It is something i am scared to do

3- It is something my parents wont approve

4- It is something my friends wont approve

5- It is something C-R-A-Z-Y and radical

I dont want to do this. No way! details later…

But you know what? I dont ever ever EVER want to knowingly ignore the voice of my God.
I want people to look at me and kNOW that there is something strange inside of me… something they dont have (Jesus). I dont ever want to have treasures in this world. I want to invest in His kingdom… not because He promises to bless me but mostly because of my crazy love for the King.

Today the words of a dear friend become true and not-so-crazy- anymore.

“I would be happy living in a studio. I dont need much. Poor wife…”
Im with you George.!

He is right. Now i get it.

What kind of life are we living? Does our life reflect the love, compassion, selflessness and surrender of Jesus?

We are way too comfortable….

So im doing something CRAZY. Im not telling you quite yet. But you’ll know

God wants everything from us. Not just leftovers. He wants everything.

And if for you that means being uncomfortable… then so be it!

Now i dont want you to think that i want everyone to be poor. Nor i believe that everyone needs to be rich. I think there should be a balance.

“Give God your first and your BEST, and trust Him to bless the rest” – Craig Groaeshel

BONUS

Posted in BONUS by misspicture on January 15, 2010
Tags: , , , ,

SEE how much i love you -my readers-? Im writing a BONUS post on a friday!

I have a raw idea of what i want to say… Ill do my best to develop it as a write. It’s how i roll/ If i wait. I loose it.

where do i start?

uhm..

Disclaimer: I dont usually write about this. Not because i dont want to but because it is just not the purpose of this blog. But what im feeling right now is well worth blogging about.

If you’ve spent some time with me. You probably know that i dont hide what i feel. Sometimes i wish i could hide my feelings and just keep my mouth shut. But i just cant. Sometimes im proud of it. Sometimes im ashamed of it. It depends.

the thing is… Oh man, i cant believe im really going to write this on a public blog.

He is funny. He is not very good at telling jokes but for some reason they make me laugh. he gets all excited if i laugh when anyone else is. He is cute. He is mature with a little sparkle of immatureness. He is taller than me. He is a gentleman. He thinks about marriage a lot. More than anyone around him knows. He has a neat bed and a very organized tiny room. He knows how to match his dress pants with the right shirt. He can clean the floor like any one i know. He is protective. He opens the door for girls. He is a faithful and caring friend. He is shy.

He is head-over-hills in love with Jesus. He keeps a journal. He is one of the best christians i’ve met. He is humble and genuine. He has guy friends. He has a servant’s heart. He actually reads his bible and lives it. He looks right into my eyes.

But he walks out the room whenever our conversations get interesting.

crap.

too good to be true.

Im the worst christian ever. BONUS

Posted in BONUS by misspicture on January 9, 2010
Tags: , , , , , , ,

dad: Can i borrow your cellphone?

me: sure!

after a few minutes i went to where he was and told him (not-so-politely): “You are going to consume all my minutes!!!!”

went back to my room and felt horrible

I am the worst christian ever.

I just finished reading CRAZY LOVE by Francis Chan. Awesome book. But what happened to all the words i had just read? why did i have to be so selfish and be a jerk to my dad? why did i not love him? why didnt i show Jesus to him?

I am the worst christian ever. I am ashamed

I need to go apologize-

now.

Thoughts- BONUS

Posted in BONUS by misspicture on December 29, 2009
Tags: , , , , , ,

Here are some thoughts after a bad day…

1- I miss my Ms in a way i never thought i would.
2- Im on my own in this.
3- No-one here understands
4- They will not understand
5- And that’s ok
6- I dont like # 2, 3 and 4. But its all part of the process
7- I asked for forgiveness. Being this miserable doesnt bring glorty to God
8- I miss my M* girls
9- I would take that plane tomorrow if i could
10- Its just me and God.
11- This next year is going to be challenging
12- I am growing. I am growing. I become a new creature with every passing day. He is my perfecter. I am becoming more like Him.
13- Boy, i am selfish!
14- Jesus is fixing that. Dont worry.
15- Sadness is over.
16-Im on my own.
17- No one understands
18- repeat # 8
19- My spirit is listening
20- My relationship with Him has never been stronger
21- #20 is true just because of # 2,10 and 16
22- waiting sucks
23- I LOVE my life
24- I HATE waiting
25- I am doing this right. I am doing life right. This is right.
26- I may or may not go to N.A next year
27- But. I am doing this right.
28- I love blogging
29- I just finished the book of Acts and i start Romans tomorrow. (8 days until i finish up the Bible)
30- I think Acts is my -new- favorite book of the Bible.
31- Be still and Know that I am God- Psalms 46:10
32- I am doing this right. I have bad days. But im doing this right.
33- Thank you Jesus.

Saturday -BONUS- Post

Posted in BONUS by misspicture on December 19, 2009
Tags: , , , , , , , ,

First of all. THANK YOU for your prayers! I really appreciate all your text messages, emails, calls and tweets.

My meeting went super well. My pastor was super kind in giving me all the time i needed to share my story and my thoughts about the trip. He also told me that he believed in my call and that, as a church, they were planning on sending me. He just didnt know when and how.

Yeah…

We are meeting again in january.
He promised to have an answer to the when and how then.

I will let God show him what He showed me. Gen 28;15

I am still processing this.

What do you think i should do?

Changing the subject….

Have i told you about my friends lately?

I have many, many good friends that i love and cherish.

But there are 3…. M*, A* and S* and they have the best friend tag in my soul.

M* is a girl and i always blog about her. She will have her chance to shine in this blog. But i wont talk about her today. Though i keep her close to my heart.

Today. It will be about the two boys that have won my heart. A* and S*. They are my brothers, my friends, my travel buddies. They let me tell them what to wear, and im always invited to their family parties. When they have stupid boy-fights they call me and ask for advice. They tickle me. They drive me home. sometimes they pay for my meals. sometimes they open the door for me. They buy me christmas presents. They care about me. They love me.

And i love them. deeply

I will have TWO “best men” @ my weeding- I dont care what my groom says-  And it will be them.

I have been so blessed to be able to share my life with these two.

Watch out, girls! If you ever date one of them. You will have to go through their little sister first! AKA: me!

Today is a good day. A good day to be thankful.
Thankful for godly men in my life.

Enjoy the rest of the weekend.!