BONUS
I want to write about so many things right now i dont know where to start.
First off i want to ask all of the bloggers out there a question. Or two.
Why did i have 24 readers yesterday. But had 5 readers the day before? What makes a blog readable? what made it readable yesterday? Im curious
There is something else.
I am pregnant
No.
Not with a baby.
With a vision. A new vision
And as scary as it sounds. It is not for Africa.
For the past few months God has been re-directing my passion for Africa. He wants me there next year. I would even say He wants me there for a good 2-5 years. *This is yet to be confirmed* But I really believe God wants me somewhere else after that. Doing something i love to do.
But there is one problem with that. People will not believe this. Because i cant count how many times i have said God was not calling me there. And He wasn’t. But He may be now. People will criticize me im sure.
I know i shouldnt be thinking about this now. Because im just 28 weeks away from seeing the fulfillment of God’s promise to my life. Something ive been waiting for 4 years.
But it just hit me today.
This leaves me thinking that God is able to re-direct the vision He’s already given you. And re-define the passion of your heart. For the sake of His great calling for your life. Note that im not saying “change” im using the terms “re-direct” and “re-define” as indicators that there is a core value, if you would. And that will never change.
What do you think? Do you think God can do that?
Unsuccessful
BONUS
I have learned one thing over the past few days.
There is no point on getting mad at the people you love.
It is a waste of time.
Really!
When you get mad at someone. It doesnt affect them. It affects you. It makes YOU sad. It makes YOU grumpy.
Not them.
Actually, if you dont speak out. They wont even know you are mad.
Im just saying that it is always better to forgive and forget
Dont throw your relationships out the window. Not every single thing you dislike is a reason to argue.
If there is one thing i want my friends and family to say about me is:
She’s graceful. And forgiving.
Are you being graceful and forgiving?
Im not. But im trying.
Always keep in mind that God is graceful and forgiving.
Who are we not to do the same for others?
It is all about selflessness.
:)
Last night i had my share of quality time. I went out with a group of friends and just talked and talked for two good hours. I left that place with a big smile on my face.
ah! i love having friends. Im the kind of person who has various groups of friends. I have the high-school friends. College friends. Church friends. work friends. and French-class friends. And i love them all!
After being stuck in the house since last sunday i really needed to go out and “see the world”.
It was worth it. It was different.
Last night i went to bed knowing that everything is right with the world. I am comfortable with who i am. My life is somehow perfect right now. There is nothing else i need. I think i have never felt like this before- ever.
I am ready to grow up.
Move forward
And enjoy what God has planned.
Because today.
Today is just the first day of the rest of my life.
10 THINGS i dont want.
In no particular order
I DONT want…
1- To ever allow anything or anyone to take God’s place in my life
2- To not be able to keep contact with my friends while in Africa
3- To miss my little brother’s 2nd birthday and his first day of school
4- To have someone else cook for my husband and kids. I will be the Queen of that kitchen (even if its tiny) im telling you. No one feeds my family but momma.
5- To have someone else raise my kids.
6- To be scared about support raising. Im about to pee my pants- scared
7- To ignore what i believe God has been telling me.
8- To be confused about what i believe God has been telling me.
9- To have a busy schedule this year
10- To be in this “detox” diet. But im just supporting my mom you know… IM STARVING! Daniel fast is going to kill me in 14 days.
FLF
yeah…
Im having a sushi discipleship date with Nore. AND im exciteed!!
we are studying Philipians and it has been amazing to learn about our weaknesses and how they can bring glory to God. well.. that’s actually today’s study.
Nore dont read this.
I also found this website HERE and im currently watching GREEK
I love that show.
I leave you with some worship
Yes… in french.
Roi des cieux- Dan Luiten
Oh McDonalds!
waiter: Good afternoon, what can i get for you?
Me: Good afternoon, Can i just have a Pepsi light please?
Waiter: Ok. What can i get you to drink?
Me: uhm.. a can of pepsi light please.
Waiter: Pepsi?
Me: yes, sir
Waiter: Did you just say light?
Oh Boy!
Have you ever had this happen to you?
Did you miss me?
Im not really sure what to blog about. I think im a little rusty from the strike. Which im so glad i did by the way…
Ok so a few things happened while a i was gone…
1- I started Discipleship or DSHIP, as i liked to call it, with my friend Nore
2- I filled out my application to go to Africa for a year.
3- I asked my pastor, my best friend, my ex-boss, and my mentor (Sorry Jyll i would have asked you, but you are in the DR. I love you!) to fill out my references.
4- I discovered a hidden love for Jazz. So far i like, Norah Johns, Michael Buble, and Jamie Cullum. (Marcus. your recommendations are on my “to listen” list)
5- I really really like ”Vanilla Twilight” by owl city
6- Im not sure if Romans 8:25 was a “yes, but wait” answer. And this is pretty much killing me.
7- ZACH IS DONE WITH SUPPORT! woohooo
8- My friend Ryan bought his ticket to go to Uganda for two years as a missionary. If you want to know how you can support him. Ask me. Double wooohoooo
9- Im going on a Daniel Fast starting FEB 15th.
10- I will read the book of Ruth 21 times. (once a day while fasting) Cant wait!
11- There is a reason why i picked that book. dont ask.
12- My baby brother gets cuter and cuter
13- My job description has changed to pretty much “change diapers and play with a 14 month old”
14- I like my new job.
15- I still go to the office. When strictly necessary. My boss (AKA: mom) would rather have me here taking care of her boy, than at the office. SCORE!
16- Im flipping scared about support raising.
17- I may or may not know one of my roommates for next year.
18- I may have or may have not found a Venezuelan to go to Africa with me in Sept.
19- Venezuela has 2 hours black-outs a day. One dollar costs more than a bottle of water AND the government is killing students all over the country. to name a few things….
20- God is still in Control.
21- God is re-directing my passion for Africa. My vision is blurry but i know it involves college students.
22- Man.. this makes me want to dance. God bless Latin America
Now. PLEASE. Tell me. Did you miss me?
Because i missed you.
STRIKE IS OVER!
ZACH IS DONE WITH SUPPORT!
Check back tomorrow- OR later today. who knows?
Have a GREAT day!
To all the crazy people out there…
Thanks for your comments and ideas-
I pray God will continue to straighten you as you continue to do CRAZY things.
I heard that one of my friends is going on a last minute mission trip. And i just thought: “This is it, Jesus. This is it”
I want a heart that listen to the voice of God and ACTS on it. Instantly.
I think i came up with my crazy thing.
Giving up 65% the money destined for entertainment on my budget. For 3 months.
Starting feb 1.
until April 30.
May 1st. I am SO going out to eat.
It’s not much. But it hurts. And if it hurts its sacrificial. If its sacrificial… then that’s what im doing.
Random thought: Going to Africa sounds crazy enough to me…. HA!
This a very shapeless post. Im just throwing random thoughts in here.
oh well!
Keep it up! Keep living a crazy life for Jesus. And let me know how it goes….
Oh! oh! Before i forget.
I have the application-for my One year internship in Africa- sitting right next to me. Half done.
I cant believe this is happening.
I am scared.
It’s Monday!
It’s monday and since i pretty much blogged during the weekend. Im going to keep it simple today.
I just want to ask you a simple question… or two.
If you are reading this.
what’s your name? and where are you from?
I really want to know who reads this blog. Dont ignore me!
set, ready…. GO!
FLF- Stay Strong!
Nehemiah 8:10: “Do not grieve, for the joy of the Lord is your strength.”
i wanted to share this with you. As i was praying for you today i started quoting this verse in scripture. “The joy of the Lord is my strengh”
friend, i want you to be encouraged by that. For me this verse means that when im going through hard times for the cause of God, or when i keep myself from things i may want to do but shouldnt because are not good in God’s eyes…. He rejoices! He smiles over me! He is full of joy when we obey! and the scripture says that THAT -His joy – is our strength.
This idea always keeps me on the right track – not all the time. I screw up a lot- But just the thought of knowing that He is going to rejoice in my obedience keeps me strong.
Stay Strong in knowing the He is watching and that you have me to back you up and to support you no matter what -even if you fall- I am here to help you stand up again.
Let me know how you’re doing.
Love-
//
I recently sent this email to a friend. And i feel like someone might need to read those words today. I hope it encourages you to stay strong.
UHm.. It will certainly help me stay strong today as my Blackberry notifications will start screaming that i have new facebook messages.
I will check ‘em tomorrow. that’s for sure.
just not today.
Today it’s FLF
Feliz weekend, Readers!
Im the worst christian ever. BONUS
dad: Can i borrow your cellphone?
me: sure!
after a few minutes i went to where he was and told him (not-so-politely): “You are going to consume all my minutes!!!!”
went back to my room and felt horrible
I am the worst christian ever.
I just finished reading CRAZY LOVE by Francis Chan. Awesome book. But what happened to all the words i had just read? why did i have to be so selfish and be a jerk to my dad? why did i not love him? why didnt i show Jesus to him?
I am the worst christian ever. I am ashamed
I need to go apologize-
now.
FLF
I just downloaded Facebook to my Blackberry. After 6 month of living a facebook notifications-free life. So im not sure what to do with my FLF…. my cellphone keeps ringing showing me that i have fb messages but i have not checked them all day today… i dont know what to do.
maybe i shouldnt have downloaded the facebook application again…. BUT i have an excuse for that and that is i came up with a daily schedule and when i was done with it i realized facebook was not included in my day. So i decided to download it on my Blackberry again… It feels so weird.
But i dont know whats going to happen with my FLF.
I mean, i should stick with this. I need a break from Facebook once a week. I dont want it… But i like challenges!
so here’s what im going to do…
Im going to ignore the notifications on my Blackberry. Every friday-
I need your encouragement-
Every friday-
Thoughts- BONUS
Here are some thoughts after a bad day…
1- I miss my Ms in a way i never thought i would.
2- Im on my own in this.
3- No-one here understands
4- They will not understand
5- And that’s ok
6- I dont like # 2, 3 and 4. But its all part of the process
7- I asked for forgiveness. Being this miserable doesnt bring glorty to God
8- I miss my M* girls
9- I would take that plane tomorrow if i could
10- Its just me and God.
11- This next year is going to be challenging
12- I am growing. I am growing. I become a new creature with every passing day. He is my perfecter. I am becoming more like Him.
13- Boy, i am selfish!
14- Jesus is fixing that. Dont worry.
15- Sadness is over.
16-Im on my own.
17- No one understands
18- repeat # 8
19- My spirit is listening
20- My relationship with Him has never been stronger
21- #20 is true just because of # 2,10 and 16
22- waiting sucks
23- I LOVE my life
24- I HATE waiting
25- I am doing this right. I am doing life right. This is right.
26- I may or may not go to N.A next year
27- But. I am doing this right.
28- I love blogging
29- I just finished the book of Acts and i start Romans tomorrow. (8 days until i finish up the Bible)
30- I think Acts is my -new- favorite book of the Bible.
31- Be still and Know that I am God- Psalms 46:10
32- I am doing this right. I have bad days. But im doing this right.
33- Thank you Jesus.
1st Post!
Hello Everyone!
Thanks for stopping by. This is still under construction!
How do i look?
Love-
MP
